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I'm getting familiar with the floor...
2009, Mar. 18th | 09:20 pm
location: Somewhere out there
mood: wishing and hoping
music: Boys Like Girls - Learning to Fall
I can hardly breathe
When I'm going down
Don't worry about me
Don't try this at home..."
So right, my plan A didn't really work out. He dumped me, after telling that he didn't really love me. He's in love with another guy ever since, so I didn't have a chance.. However, after hitting the floor hard, I gain strength and get back on my feet. Plan B is starting to form itself.
Special news: my secret of being gay has found it's way to the public, as an old ex-friend couldn't keep his mouth shut.. So I start hearing my classmates talking me out behind my back. That's a very bad feeling...
In spite of the happenings, I can still say that life goes on and I'll manage to make it better for myself.
PS.: Pic (c) Blotch
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Free or.. whatsoever
2009, Feb. 15th | 05:30 pm
location: Anywhere but here >.>
mood: however
music: Heineken
Well I've turned 17. Nothing much really changed. On my birthday, me and my bf broke up, it hurt, but now I'm quite through it. I mean, people said that he never really treated me the way he should have. Anyway, that's the past, and this is the present, and right now I know it's over.
Despite all that, I'm looking forward to meeting a guy sooner or later who'd fallen in love with me through msn (weird no?). Nevertheless I have plan B with one of my classmates who seems to be trying to get closer to me, but that's only a guess.
So things still happen, I'm just too lazy to write them.
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I'm not always like this
2008, Sep. 18th | 09:10 pm
location: Dark Side Of Moon
mood: 
tired
music: Enigma - Push the Limits
School started very boring, but it gets some attention now. I'm all happy about my grades, because all the A-s and B-s. I would have to study a lot, but lately I don't really do. Even though I'll try my best to study enough, to be a better student.
I'm slowly, but improving in art. Some days ago somebody told me to "keep up the good work", and of course I'll try my best to do so.
Other good news are that Kitty and me are planning a Halloween party. And it should be a big one, with over 40 people at a rent out bar with a lot of alcohol and snacks!
There are still bad news, but that can get way less attention. My secret about not being straight is sinking out to the crowd. Most people only guesses, but there are some who know, and people have mouths... Eventually I don't really care. They can think what they like, it's their opinion, just don't call me a fag.
PS: I think that I know more than most other people do at this age, or.. do I?
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I just don't deserve this much, do I?
2008, Aug. 31st | 12:31 am
location: Crawling out of a grave in a cementery...
mood: 
cold
music: Sarah McLeod - He Doesn't Love You
Summer went boring, then exciting for 5 days, and now it's miserable.
I was so happy, I had the best days of my life. I think I was in love, and got loved in return. Some problems solved themselves. There were some great parties, dance camp was good too. Everything went great.
And then suddenly.. *woosh* some of my best friends hate me, a bunch of questions about what to do after grammar school, the guy I love have slept with a girl, school starts next monday (the day after tomorrow). So in short, I'm in deep bullshit.. The world won't come to an end though. I just stay as I was two or so years ago, I'll cry myself into sleep every night, live in my imaginations, exclude the world around me, do some very bad art. I died, again...
Why would it be that easy? Why would I be happy for a bit longer? Why would anyone care?
This leopard really loves you...
Still living in hopes, and because of hopes.
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One shoulder for the world's problems, and the other for mine's
2008, Jul. 22nd | 10:46 pm
location: Under the skies, above the sea, but not on the ground
mood: 
blah
music: GorillaZ - Kids With Guns
So life goes on, I try to think on some changes in many different areas. I'll try to change my art-style, lifestyle and plans for the future a bit. It's starting slowly and getting harder every passing day, but I do need things to improve, or there will be nothing for me in this life. I have to do something about the future, but it won't be no picnic..
I'm living in hopes and tries at the moment, but that will have to change soon too.
Just trying out some LJ features >.>Image (c) Blotch